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Anu

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I am known to be charismatic and friends often say that I have a magnetic personality. I like being poised, confident, unpredictable, fun and mysterious. Oh ya and being loved and pampered.. :o) I am kinda flirty,a frndly and outgoing gal who makes others feel at ease. Jus' the right mix of sultry and sweet, witty and wise and lots more.. ;-)
And 100% original, jus' me!
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5월 28일

The Day After...

Well here I am, the results are out and I've scored pretty well but could have done much better I know. I got 92.5% agg with Comp(98) and if it werent for my mid 80s low scores in what many consider my best subjects- the languages English and Hindi I would surely have jumped up atleast 2-3 points.
What a travesty, tragedy and an utter heartbreak to find yourself scoring low in the subjects you are deemed the best at, and seeing people who never even got distinctions ever before scoring 90 and above! Ouch..
Well, it can be attributed to the fact that it's a well known tale that in the Board examinations in India, very basic and mediocre language is required to secure good marks and mine is well jus' a notch too high for them I have to say. Well, no matter it could have been much worse atleast I'm in the 90s but that's not much to boast of. Thank God I'm going to be leaving this school, this dratted system in a month or so and moving onto a new regime, Junior College in Mumbai!
 
What's done is done, let bygones be bygones, I want to and can affor to forget my marks till the 23-24th of June when the admission process starts over and I intend to take my mind off these things and not be too disappointed or sad. Looking forward to some great sporting action today onwards!
Can't live without sports...That's me!
 
But sadly and most unfortunately one of the best F1 Grand Prix of the year- Monaco has already been effectively ruined for me. Michael Schumacher, for whom my adoration, respect and loyalty knows no limits has been stripped(ouch) of his pole(!) and placed at the back of the grid(sob..sob) alongwith his unworthy team mate Massa who had crashed out earlier for deliberately blocking others' paths in the last leg of qualifying. It's blasphemous to say the least! The FIA is jus' playing to other teams'(who are inexplicably jealous and wary of Ferrari since forever) pressures.. this is so unfair! Is there now no place for driver error? They have without evidence assumed the sport's most able and best exponent to be guilty! Uff!
Well, myt catch some part of the race but it's going to be a heart ache all the way seeing dear Schumi languishing at the end when he could and certainly would have been on the podium!!
 
There's also the French Open which starts today! yay! Finally.. The first few round matches aren't always too competitive or engaging due to the vast diff in player ability and form but nevertheless tennis is still tennis and god knows I loveee it!!! Can't wait for Rafa's match for whom my adoration, love, respect, loyalty and more is a notch above for Schumi.. hehe! ;-) Vamos Rafa! Venga con fuerez!!
2 hours to go for my favourite Grand Slam of them all to begin!!
 
See got a lot to take my mind off the results, not that they were too bad.. but I intend to let my hair down for the last few weeks in Delhi before I zip over to Europe for a vacation and then zip back and forth between Mumbai and Delhi for two weeks getting settled in and then the college admission grind! That hurdle cleared things should start to calm down and settle...
 
Looking forward to spending my time drowned in sports and books and music.. :-))
Take care,
Anu
 
P.S. Be back tmrw..
 
 
  
 
5월 26일

Jus' for Me..

Been going through a couple of my previous entries.. well not really couple to be frank and not recent too.. been reading through ones from last year and pretty far back and then gradually reaching closer home and hvta say it doesn't paint a pretty picture..
 
I've been going downhill steadily without even realizing it and also been caught up in too many self-doubts and unneccessary questions, I've weighed myself down on my own! Strange feat huh..
 
BUt glad to say I've realized this now, this is for me, this whole blogging ritual, putting my thoughts, my stark naked, truthful, frank, exact thoughts into words, this is supposed to be for me not for anyone or anything else. SO that's me cutting free of any kinda social obligations or stuff.. I don't give a fuck anymore to anything that threatens to weigh me down or keep me away from being and portraying who I really am.. This is my life and I intend to live it well.. And these are my words and I don't intend to watch them or edit them.. So watch out! ;o)
Am really looking forward to blogging now, it's a balm to my soul, it's healing.. and it's a great outlet for any
pent-up emotions and bagaage.. :-)
 
"You're only as happy as you make up your mind to be" I heard this a long tym ago and forgot it conveniently hvta say.. Never really gave much though to the truth of it.
ANd I've decided to make up my mind to be pretty happy this new season, hope circumstances and people don't inadvertently put a spanner in the works.
 
Expecting my class X CBSE Board results tmrw morning at 6 and hvta admit pretty tense about them, feeling numb, dunno what to expect, how to prepare for it.. Well heck, jz gna gt thru these few hours left and open the page and view it.. Whatever life throws at me, gotta make the best out of it. Jus' hope they're decent enough, alott is riding on these marks, more on that later. God Bless Me, Be With Me Through This!
 
And ahh.. my fave line these days, which I love to use on any and every occasion and surprisingly enough it fits pretty well wherever I throw it out..
"This too shall pass....." Gonna be hearing alott of that one from now on.
 
Cia tomorrow for sure,
Anu



1월 28일

Long time..

Long time no see huh? I know I've been really really busy, class tenth is finally taking its toll on me with just a month or so left before THE exams..
Plus have sorta lost my interest around here, I will take time to rediscover this place and the art of blogging after my boards when I don't have much to do.. Till then if you want you can catch me on Hi5 anytime..
Here is my personal invite link: http://www.hi5.com/i?l=UUGSY3B
 
Till then, so long, may God bless you..and me! ;-)
Take special care, hope to cacha asap..
Until we meet again, this is me Anu signing off!
 
 
                                                      
                                                                
11월 12일

Dated....November 11

Is it true? Can it be that...?
It msut be...ok ok I'll snitch.
Yesterday and the day before I had two super great days at school, thoroughly enjoyable...
A complete contrast to Monday and as it seems as of now,today.
AM I temperamental? Or like a friend of mine believes "as unpredictable as the wind" ?
Does my mood actually depend on which side of the bed I get up from?
 
Or is it perhaps something deeper? Oh God! Can't believe I've asked you that many questions already...
What are you like giving the board exams? Oh wait that's me...What are you like facing a confusion crisis?
Shoot! Again me...Well let's jus' try this some other time... ;-)
 
Ok moving on...
I keep getting a vibe that it IS me who's causing all this uncertainty. On purpose or unintentionally? No idea...
I've realised that it may be true that a person CAN  after all control the way their day goes by altering their own outlook.
 
YOU decide how you perceive each situation, each setback, each slight...
YOU decide whether you let it go or sulk thru the day...
YOU...yes, it IS upto you!
 
Agreed, that experience is a comb that life gives you when you're bald OR that experience is a toughhh teacher, it gives the test before the lesson BUT it is also true that it IS the best tecaher in life AND another one I turly believe in...those who learn fromt heir own experience are indeed wise, but those who learn from others' experience are wiser!
So, I guess I'm approaching slowly but surely the "Wise" category, so heed me now and let's see you all slotted into the "Wiser" ;-)
 
Well, it might seem to you as a teenager's dubious ramblings or flimsy deductions or maybe just philosphical mumbo-jumbo-----but trust me on this one, I'm only beginning to find my feet now after a serious illness of alternating bouts of melancholy and euphoria for well over a year...and my conclusion... Ta-Da!
 
YOU ARE, INDEED, ONLY AS HAPPY AS YOU MAKE UP YOUR MIND TO BE....!
 
Do lemme know what you think folks...until next time then...
Adieu!
 
 
11월 5일

~ |_ove ~

 

LOVE

                                               

 

If you love someone coz you think that he/she is really good looking or sexy or others think so...then it's not love...

it's...

~* Infatuation *~......  

 

If you love some one because you think that you shouldn't leave him/her coz others think you should not...then it's not love...

it's...

~*Compromise *~.......  

 

  

If you love some one because you have been kissed or hugged by them...then it's not love...

it's...

~*Inferiority Complex*~.....

 

 

If you love some one because you cannot leave him/her thinking that it would really hurt their feelings...then it's not love...

it's...

~*Charity*~....

 

If you love some one because you share

everything with them...then it's not love...

it's...

~*Friendship*~...

 

 

But if you feel the other person's pain even when

he/she seems stable and doesn't show it...

then it is...

~*LOVE*~

 

 

 If you get attractd to other people but

stick with him/her over a long period of time with

no regrets....then it is...

 

 

~*LOVE*~

 

 

If you let him go knowing that he has  

to go,that he/she would be happier if you let

them go even if it breaks your heart.. that's

 

 

~*LOVE*~

 

 

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore
that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around
to find them.

At that moment, you are in love

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh,
your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone.

Then, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from
that special someone than other many long e-mails,
you are in love.
 

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the
emails because of one message
from that special someone, you are in love. 

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend",but
you realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction. At that
moment, you are in love.


While you are reading this, if someone
appears in your mind,

then u are in love with that person...;))
 
 

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So are you in love.????

Please do let me know...

And if you want my answer don't hesitate to ask,

what have we got to hide? ;-)

Until next time then folks...

 

 


 

9월 30일

Why would someone?

 
Why would someone just throw away a life?
Is it because they lost their way,
or is it because they got stuck in  unconquerable strife?
 
Why would someone lose all hope?
Is it because they had no one there to stand by them,
or is it because they just could not cope?
 
Why would someone give up when they're almost there?
Is it because they got disillusioned,
or is it because the hardships they could no longer bear?
 
Why would someone turn away when the going got tough?
Is it becuase they just couldn't muster enough strength,
when they saw their dreams vanish in a puff?
 
Why would someone stop striving?
For something they swore they would attain,
Is it because they saw no light at the end of the tunnel?
Or is it because they though their efforts would all go in vain?
 
TO BE CONTINUED...
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9월 20일

Birthday --> Colour --> Nature

Check it out.... ;-)
 
If your birthday is on ..... Scroll down to find out about your nature....

*[ Don't know if it's true... But here it is! ]* --> Is true for me and everyone I know,u see for yourself!
 
December 23rd - January 1st and June 25th-July 4th

Red


January 2nd - January 11th and July 5th-July 15th

Orange


January 12th - January 24th and July 15th-July 25th

Yellow


January 25th - February 3 and July 26th-August 4th

Pink

 
February 4th - February 8th and August 5th-August 13th

Blue

February 9th - February 18th and August 14th-August 23rd

Green


February 19th - February 28th and August 24th-September 2

Brown


March1st - Match 10th and September 2nd-September 12th

Aqua


March 11 - March 20th and September 12th-September 22nd

Lime

 

September 23

Olive



March 21 st

Black

March 22 nd - March 31st and September 24th-October 3rd

Purple

April 1st - April 10th and October 3rd-October 13th

Navy


April 11th - April 20th and October 13th-October 23rd

Silver


April 21st - April 30th and October 24th-November 11th
White


May 2nd - May 14th

Blue

May 15th - May 24th and November 12th-November 21st

Gold


May 25th - June 3rd and November 21st-december 1st

Cream

June 4th - June13th and December 2nd-December 11th

Gray


June 14 - June 23rd and December 12th-December 21st

Maroon

June 24th

Gray

 

December 23rd

Teal

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RED
Cute and lovable type, you are picky but always in love ...and liked to be
loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people,
nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are
easy to talk to, and can make you feel comfortable.

CREAM
Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are
trustworthy, and very out-going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall
in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long
long time.

 

TEAL

You are mostly interested in your looks. And have high standards in picking
love. You think and make a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid
mistakes. You like to lead, and is easy for you to make new friends.

 

GREY
You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings, and express
everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be
noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up
people's day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good
sense of humor.

 

GREEN
You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but
sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be
loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the
right person.

 

GOLD
You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's
hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person,
you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time
.

PINK
You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for
other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts,
and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale.

YELLOW
You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong
leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right
choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.


MAROON
You are intelligent, and know what's right. You like to take things go your
way, which can sometimes cause trouble or not thinking about other people's
feelings. But you are patient when it comes to love... Once you get a hold
of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.


ORANGE
You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people.
You always have goals to reach, and are competitive. When it comes to
friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right
friend, you trust them for ever.


PURPLE
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your
day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between
friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go
for person that's trustworthy.


LIME
You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain
over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a
capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.


SILVER
You are imaginative and shy, but you like trying new things. You like to
challenge yourself. You learn things easily, and like "Hard to get". Your
love life is normally hard and confusing.


WHITE
You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't
react to things easily. You are different and sometimes thought highly by
others.


OLIVE
You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and
family. You don't like violence and know what's right. You are kind and
cheerful, but don't envy other people easily.


BROWN
You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with
you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get
something, you give up and let go easily as well.

BLUE
You have low self-esteem, and very picky. You are artistic and like to fall
in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your
heart.


NAVY
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards
everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, it's
hard for you to forgive them.


AQUA
Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like
travelling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too
easily. It's hard to find love for you, and you get lost in love easily.
Sometimes you get hurt by love.

BLACK
You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your
life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time.
Your love life is also challenging, and different.

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So long people....Cacha l8rz...

Loads of love,take gud care...

N ya do tell me your 'colour' and whether it's true for you....can't wait to see... :-))

Love,

Anu






8월 18일

True survey and love...+ pix

Had a really personal entry to add today...well in the end too personal...will refine it and get back to u in a coupla days maybe wid that or smthn else from my personal diary or blog whenever I feel like it... :-)
In the meantime do go through this entry...
P.S>Lifez a bit better now just a bit though...someone broke my heart slightly today...dont ask me who...
or how for that matter...maybe I'll be in a mood to divulge it later...
you know the worst part,I dnt evn feel lik hating him or tihkning badly of him when he does that...strange huh? It's just part of life...you knw how ultra-sensitive I can be so I'm bound to get hurt more than average,cant keep taking ti all to heart...well I cant help tkaing it to heart at times but then you cant keep being upset over that with the person,in the long term who cares?
loads of love...
Anu
 
Worldwide survey was conducted by the UN. The only question asked was:
"Would you please give your honest opinion about solutions to the food
Shortage in the rest of the world?
"

The survey was a huge failure, In Africa they didn't know what 'food'
meant, In India they didn't know what 'honest' meant, In Europe they
didn't know what 'shortage' meant, In China they didn't know what
'opinion' meant, In the Middle East they didn't know what 'solution'
meant, In South America they didn't know what 'please' meant, And in the
USA they didn't know what 'the rest of the world' meant!
=)
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Giving someone all your love is never an aasurance,
that they will love you back.
 
Do not expect love in return,just wait for it to grow
in their heart.
 
But if it doesnt,
be content that it grew in yours...
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Don't hold something in your arms,
that you could never hold in your heart...
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< that mkes things so much easier ine? ;-)
 
 
8월 9일

Hey there!

Hiiiiii
 
Well cant say if i'm back to my original self or not yet but sure had a great day today!
First things first....my new  beginning if thatz what u wna cal it came a coupla days ago vn i tlaked to two of the msot wonderful friends you cna ever have-yashika and vaibhav....
well they dint do any soul searching for me or lecture me or enthng(tho yashu came close lol jz kiddin) but they made me realize a couple of things that maybe I had forgotten or jz conveniently overlooked....
I'm different now but the old me isnt completely lost for sure...but you cnt stay the same for ever more right...eveyr person does their share of growing up...they change and evolve... :-))
 
Anyways I had an awesome dya today for moreeeee reasons than one....you know how small things cheer me up,kind deeds form friends,a loving word form someone,someone paying my close attention or just something nice form the teachers or stuff like that...
well today was a gr8 mix...touchwood ;-)
 
Hope to cacha soon...am kidna busy right now as tomorrow have a Hindi test(omg!), thursday have an interschool debate competition(yay anu! lol....wish me luk i need it...) and friday i'm compering the Independece Day special assembly in fornt of the whole school and guests from outside...
whoa a hectic week hoep tiz a happy n satisfying one too...cheers to that...
 
Tk spl care...Luv,
Anupriya {really now yashu....I dont actually hate my name ;-) } OR Anu {if thatz what you prefer :-)) }
 
 <= wish i cud find ;-)
I always do! Ya in my life ;-)
<<So true...! :-p
 
Until next time then folks.....
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7월 30일

Where to begin....and where to end....

Hey...
 
Even I don't know whatsup with me these days...so howz anyone else supposed to know you guys? ;o)
Dunno seriously...
Trailing off...channeling out...In short not enjoying anything I used to before(well there are major exceptions like sports etc.)....Becoming a sorta loner and do not know against my wishes or in tune with them...
Strange isnt it?
Just dont find myself on even footing with anyone else these days...dont feel like chatting with anyone (not just online even at school)...conversations mostly restricted to just whats abs essential...
But I enjoy my home life family TV sports hobbies interests et al more than I used to...so I guess I'm just
anti-people right now...
All in all leading a lonely solitary existence that isnt ME at all...
Waiting for this year to end to give my boards after studying hard and to get separated into different streams,different sections and thereby different groups of people and maybe different friends...people I find more interesting and endearing...so have convinced myself that my miserableness is gna lst jst till I reach class 11...what if it doesnt end then? Dont have a plan B yet so dont question me... ;-)
I am not DEPRESSED though just not as happy as I usualy am...but still getting along fine as I know how to have fun on my own too or with just a few selected friends(none at school)...
Hope evry1z fine out there...Am getting along pretty fine,have alot of studies and homework to keep me from sitting bored or vela in the xtra free time I have being an anti-social body... :-p
I need a spark in my life I guess...What or maybe even who will provide it I have no idea...When again your guess is as good as mine...Till then mundane routine...
You guys tk cre...Cacha l8rz...
Love,
Anupriya
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Those We Love

They say the world is round,
Yet I often think it's square,
So many little hurts we get
From corners here and there;
But there's one truth in life I've found
While journeying East and West,
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those we love the best.
 
True,is it?
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P.S.Congrats to darling Rafa on winning his 7th and 8th titles of the year at Bastad and Stuttgard and to Schumi for at long last getting a pole position today at Hungary,dunno how long he'll hold it 15 laps or less but still a pole's a pole... :-)
 
So long....
 
 
 <=I agree!
<=that's what I wanna do all the time...
 
 
7월 3일

Randomania...Check It Out


A mirror is only as good
As the reflection in it.

 

Worry enough to anticipate trouble
But not so much as to bring it about.

 

Look back to where you have been
For a clue to where you are going.

 

Melt the icy fingers of fear
With the sunshine of hope.

 

Step by gentle step,
You can overcome the greatest sorrow.

 

The sweetest grapes
Are picked from the vineyard of friendship.

 

Find something you truly believe in,
And everything else will have meaning as well.


A local newspaper ran a competition asking for a rhyme with the
most romantic first line... but the least romantic second line.
Here are some of the entries they received.



I thought that I could love no other
Until, that is, I met your brother.

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Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you.
But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar
bowl's empty and so is your head.

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Of loving beauty you float with grace
If only you could hide your face

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Kind, intelligent, loving and hot;
This describes everything you are not


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I want to feel your sweet embrace
But don't take that paper bag off of your face

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I love your smile, your face, and your eyes -
Damn, I'm good at telling lies!

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My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife:
Marrying you screwed up my life


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I see your face when I am dreaming.
That's why I always wake up screaming

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My love, you take my breath away.
What have you stepped in to smell this way

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My feelings for you no words can tell,
Except for maybe "go to hell"

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What inspired this amorous rhyme?
Two parts vodka, one part lime
        


I wanted to find some words on a card.
That would help to get thru' it when life gets so hard.

It seems you can't bear it, perhaps can't go on
When deep in the heart there's no trace of a song.

Some words that would comfort when late in the night
The trials return and you're too tired to fight.

Or the tears flow so often it seems you'll run dry.
And life gets so tough that you just want to die.

Or at least go and hide where you're safe from all pain.
Someplace you can rest 'til you find joy again.

What are the words you so need to hear
That will help and will heal and remove all the fear?

That builds up inside 'til you think you'll explode
What are the words that will lighten the load?

If only I knew the right words to say.
To encourage and bless you or comfort some way.

I know not the words but this I can do.
I shall offer up prayers to the Great God for you.

 


Sorry didn't have time for anything original or to even leave comments and keep in touch lately...it is a huge family crisis going on right now...don't even ask coz even I dont know...

cacha laters...plz dnt mind me being so out of touch...i luv u all the same...just gimme some time...

tk spl spl spl spl cre...

Loads of love,

Anu

6월 30일

Self-Composed Poem 2

Heya...
Schoolz about to start,I dont wanna go at all...Not finished homework...Dunno what am gonna do...Eeks will have to slog last day!!!
My grandma passed away last week n itz been a whirlwind ever since,hectic,rituals galore,am quite numbed actually...well life has to go on...God Bless Her Soul and me too... 
 :-)

Memories
 
 
The deep blue ocean rises,
the willow in the wind sways.
and my tender mind reminisces,
to forgotten,gone by days.
 
How I wish,I could turn back time,
relive those moments once more,
those memories,sweet as sugar,sour as lime;
those times that have become part of my life's lore.
 
Those tender moments we shared,
over the beautiful setting sun,
the feeling of having loved and cared,
of being two souls in one.
 
The memories bring my world crashing down,
like violent waves on a sea shore;
they come back to me time and again,
and sadden my aching heart to the core.
 
I know what has been,has been;
and can never come back,
however much I prick and preen,
it will remain my life's missing link: your lack...

 
Do tell me what you think of it...It's not based on a personal experience ( as far as I know) ;-) but is really straight form the heart...
Do keep in touch...Gonna be regular from now on...
 
Love Ya All,
 
Anu
 
 
                                                                          
 
6월 24일

1-written by me

It was the third day after she had been admitted to the Intensive Care Unit at the hospital and there was something in the air that didn't seem right.Even sitting in the living room in front of my Tv set watching one of my favorite sitcoms,there was this ominous feeling running through me that I could not ignore.Yet I could not speak out loud.For once it was  out the last damage would have been done,it would have been inevitable,final.

The housekeeper came brushing past enquiring for the breakfast table to be set blah blah...minor household details.I wasn't really paying attention.Mom and Dad had just left for the station to pick up my aunt who was coming from Kashmir this morning with her daughter.Even as my mother walked past I thought I sensed something in those eyes,but the very next moment I was sure I must have imagined it or rather I convinced myself I had.I casually waved and told her take care as she rushed out with dad.I knew something wasn't right.But I did not want to admit it.

By this time the housekeeper had lost her temper at my indifference,she has this habit of wanting to appear superior,more knowledgeable than us.So she started proclaiming things that she deduced I would not know,my parent's plans for the morning for example- that my parents would be back to drop off my cousin and then rush to the hospital with aunt.I had been deeply immersed in my thoughts and already knew this,and somehow I found myself quite annoyed and answered back shortly,"I know!"

"Achha,you know.You know she has passed away?",came the resounding reply form her,trying to establish that she knew more here.I wasn't bothered,I wouldn't have cared if she had been declared the World's Biggest Know-It-All just at that moment.But those words that had shot out with such alarming ease from her mouth seemed like a slap..a hard slap,not to my face but straight at my heart.I found my throat clenched for a moment,like I couldn't speak.But then realizing that I was sitting with my younger siblings who had no idea about the going-ons and would have been shattered to know this latest tid-bit form the housekeeper's collection I found my voice and told her to keep quiet,shut up and go do her own work.I knew I wouldn't have been able to handle the two young ones,I was barely managing to restrain myself from crying out lound and inwardly trying to console myself and not succeeding,how was I supposed to tell them? And surely mom would know better,how to tell them in a appropriate way.

Come to think of it,mom or for that matter anyone hadn't even told me yet,but I knew,right from the moment I woke up this morning I knew.

Thinking back to three days ago I reminiscicsed of that morning when I had sat at the very same spot that I was occupying now watching the same thing that I was watching now and yet evrything seemed so different,the two early mornings seemed as different as night and day.

Three days ago,I...

6월 22일

A Self-Composed Poem... + Congratz to Rafa and Dan!

Hiya..

Thanx to ne1 n evry1 who actually read my last entry...I dont what I ws thinking about while writing it but it was pretty satisfying to write like that... :-) Now this poem wasnt written yesterday...it was written like a few months ago..around 6-7 months is my guess...That time I was listening to a lot of Avril Lavigne so if the first some lines seem familiar dont frown..the rest is all mine! ;-)

Here goes...

IS IT ENOUGH?

Is it enough to be alive?

Is it enough to die?

Why don't you see my loneliness?

Why do I have to cry?

 

Why do I sit here all torn?

in complete solitude...

with my thoughts,

but still alone.

 

Life hasn't really been cruel to me,

it could've been much worse I know;

But those friendships,that love,that warmth,

why doesnt it make my heart glow??

 

Isn't it enough to be alive?

Isn't it enough to be content?

I want to feel happiness,

ask my heart to please relent....

xxx________________________________________________xxx

Well do tell me what you think of it,if you happen to drop by,by the way me hooked to tennis these days,while also trying hard to keep up with homework and self-study..fingers crossed "pour moi" :-)

P.S>Rafael Nadal got through his first round match in thumping style...straight sets 6-0 in the third! (x) = fingers crossed ;-)

Well gr8 to see him atleast get past the first round on grass ;-) dunno how much longer he can last but still all my best wishes with him..looking forward to seeing the match again tomorrow as it was cut off  by Confederations Cup telecast :-((( long time since I made that face for football ;o) ...plus tomorrowz saniaz match agnst kuznetsova...general feeling...she's a goner...but let's see...then rafaelz next match will be on thursday...

Pix to end the day:-

  <<My motto... :-))

<<the show on star world rox!Hvnt been regular bt vil b nw..

 Yupp! ;o)

 <<Dan!!! (Won the Best Young Actor award (for his part in POA) at this year's SciFy Genre Awards. In 2003, Dan also won the same award for his role in Chamber of Secrets.Congrats to him! )

Gotta go...Cacha soon...Looking forward to hear from all of you,thatz always a delight! :-)

Luv n Hugs,

Anu   msn_icons_doll_Cute_AngelKizz :-))

 
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